Monday, January 25, 2010
I think it is fittingly hilarious that, even though I thought I had made a breakthrough in the Not Me Monday post below. (Look two posts down.) I, in fact, did not. I wrote the first part on Saturday and wrote the rest today and published it today for my N.M.M. post. So pleased with myself, I was. (channeling Yoda there...)
Then, come to find out, when I posted it, it posted with Saturday's date, the date I first saved data for the post. Lame. I thought if I posted it on Monday, Monday's date would be attached.
Now I know. Live and learn and do better next Monday.
Posted by Sara at 4:49 PM
Saturday, January 23, 2010
I did NOT realize about five minutes ago that I don't have to write "Not Me Monday" posts actually on Monday. I did NOT just realize about five minutes ago that I could take the opportunity to write this post in segments throughout the week as things happen that I would like to share. I have always known that I could just write something while I was thinking about it, save it and post it at a later date. So I am, of course, not writing this on Saturday.
I did not use my baby's tummy-time play mat to measure out the fabric pieces for the birthday outfit I'm making Eden. (See the inch marks on the top right of the picture?) I, of course, have a professional measuring mat thingy (you can tell I have one because I know exactly what it's called) on which I measure and cut all my projects. i would never just use things like 8 1/2 by 11 paper and tummy-time mats to measure with.
Posted by Sara at 2:23 PM
Sunday, January 17, 2010
I had a teachable moment last night. It's not often fun to be in the middle of a teachable moment. Those moments are usually uncomfortable or unpleasant. Well, no different here.
I was upset with someone. I felt they had not made the best choices and had, in turn, inconvenienced me. I then stewed.
After a few minutes of stewing, God reminded me I needed to forgive and that I was only hurting myself by continuing to hold on to my disgruntled-ness.
So I set out to convince myself to forgive, regardless of how I felt. "Well," I thought, "he didn't really mean to. He had no ill intentions. In fact, he was probably thinking he was doing me a favor. His heart was probably in the right place." I was becoming pleased with myself. I'm so generous to realize these things and give the benefit of the doubt. This is really helping me work towards forgiveness.
Then God cut into my thoughts. "Wrong. That's not what I want you to do, Sara."
"What? I'm doing a great job here, God!"
"That's not forgiveness, Sara."
"What do you mean that's not forgiveness. Just let me continue to work this out and I'll get there eventually. Give me a few more minutes. It's not instantaneous."
"That's NOT forgiveness."
Oh, crud. I get it now.
Colossians 3: 12-13
12 Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts,kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, 13 bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive.
"Did you have anything good at ALL for Me to use as an excuse to forgive you? Did you in ANY way deserver the forgiveness I gave?" said my Father to me.
So often, we try to make ourselves forgive others by trying to realize their good intentions or by finding some grain of "good" in them that makes them possibly worthy of our forgiveness. The danger in that is that there will surely be a time when you can find no exchange for your forgiveness, no good in the one who has wronged you. Then, if you have only practiced forgiveness in this way, you will be stuck with growing bitterness inside your heart for the rest of your life. It will eat your insides out. It will take a part of you away and you will not be a fully functioning individual. You will have given Satan a foothold that he can enjoy and exploit.
Even when we CAN find that excuse to forgive, that's still not real forgiveness, so we shouldn't even bother.
God forgave me when there was nothing I could give Him. I had no redeeming qualities, but He redeemed me for Himself. I am called to forgive others even as He forgave me, not for their benefit, but for mine. God wants me to be free and my heart to be unfettered. He led by example and He also provides the power to follow.
Try it for yourself today.
Posted by Sara at 12:10 PM
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Here's the story...
I went to the Y at 5:30 for a step class. I took my keys, my wallet and Eden. I had a great class, got Eden and went to the car. I pulled out of my parking space and proceeded to go around a row of cars to get to the exit. Cars had parked all the way to the edge of the pavement and out on to some grass. I could see the grass had ruts and bumps, but I took it slow so as not to bump the nose of my car. I made it through the first "ditch" just fine and began slowly through the second. That's where all the trouble began. I never made it out. I did what you do before you realize you're stuck in mud and floored it. I made it to the crest of the mini hill and sank back down. I popped it in reverse. No luck. I turned the wheels, looking for a better direction to get out. No good. I reversed as far as I could go, quickly put it in drive and (brilliantly) used the kinetic energy to give my car the extra push it needed to make it through, over and out.
I had to leave my car stuck and get Eden out and walk back inside. Remember, I only have my wallet and keys. That means no phone. I use the Y's phone to call home. No answer. I then have to ask to use the personal cell phone of one of the employees to call Chuck's long distance cell number. He answers and says he'll be on his way soon.
He arrives with Arielle (who had been in the middle of eating) and tries to get my car unstuck. Meanwhile, Eden is continuously repeating "Mud. Mud. Mud? Stuck? Stuck in mud. Stuck in the mud. Car, mud. Mommy's car stuck in mud." It felt like she was rubbing it in. I was going loco.
Chuck didn't have any better time of it than I. We call AAA and settle inside the Y to wait an hour for the tow truck. Meanwhile, Arielle is getting anxious to eat the rest of her dinner and has also soaked through her diaper, pants, blanket and my sleeve... then she pooped. Eden hadn't eaten either, so Chuck drove to Wendy's for a kids meal of nuggets.
While we continue to wait and Eden begins her long-awaited meal. This very friendly woman begins chatting with us. Just basic stuff like what beautiful kids we have and remembering that she was 2 when her sister was born. Then she says "What are you having to eat sweetie? Oh, chicken nuggets, huh? You're going to get fat if you keep eating food like that."
Give us a break, lady! You have no idea what she eats normally and it's really none of your business anyway!
Then, even later, when the tow truck had come and Chuck was out with the towing man, she came back around and grabbed a cookbook off a table where it was displayed for purchase. She began showing the pictures to Eden and said "Oh, you probably won't recognize any of these vegetables, we'd better look at pictures of fruit." At that point, I felt the need to defend myself. Stupid, but oh well. So when she came to a picture of tomatoes I cut in quickly, "She LOVES tomatoes! You love tomatoes, don't you Eden!?" Of course, she just stared at me. Come on! Say, "Yummy, yummy!" or something to back Mommy up. Then we came to a page with broccoli. "Oh, broccoli Eden! another of your favorites! right?" No answer. The woman looked at me and said, "Really, she eats broccoli?" "Yep!"
I wanted to say, "Cross my heart and hope to die. She really does. I promise!" But I controlled myself.
Finally, Chuck came back in with the keys and we were all set to go.
I was super stressed out for the rest of the evening although very glad to be home. I won't be ready to go back to that Y for a few more days.
Posted by Sara at 9:49 AM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Even though I haven't been blogging faithfully, I have been making more YouTube videos. I actually have my own channel you can subscribe to and everything! It's a bit easier to make a video for me than it is to type sometimes as demonstrated in my latest one which you can find here. I actually held Arielle through the whole thing. She's now sleeping peacefully, so I had a moment to write this so you would know to go watch.... especially if you're blemish-prone like me. You might find out something useful. :)
Posted by Sara at 2:45 PM
Saturday, January 02, 2010
I'm back at it. I actually found some time to hit the sewing machine and try out a brand new pattern I purchased with Christmas money. I discovered Heidi and Finn on Etsy.com. They have very reasonably priced, unique kids patterns. I bought the girly blouse pattern and the dressy coat with the bow. I made Eden a fall/winter version of the blouse from some denim I had left over from making her some ruffle-bottom jeans. (I don't have a good picture of the jeans yet... I'll post when I do.)
I took her out on the porch today to photograph the debut of the blouse and then we went to the mall. She got several compliments and I was so proud! :)
Posted by Sara at 9:16 PM