I began reading a book a couple of nights ago by Timothy Keller titled "The Reason For God." I've only read the first 20 pages or so, but already I can tell that it's a perfect book for me to read right now. The author "uses literature, philosophy, real-life conversations, and reasoning to explain how faith in a Christian God is a soundly rational belief, held by thoughtful people of intellectual integrity with a deep compassion for those who truly want to know the truth" according to the book jacket.
Here's a quote from the introduction that I bet a lot of people I know would identify with.
"I seemed to see two camps before me, and there was something radically wrong with both of them. The people most passionate about social justice were moral relativists, while the morally upright didn't seem to care about the oppression going on all over the world. I was emotionally drawn to the former path-what young person wouldn't be? Liberate the oppressed and sleep with who you wanted! But I kept asking the question,'If morality is relative, why isn't social justice as well?' This seemed to be a blatant inconsistency..."
He goes on to explain what the third option would look like. A group of Christians who are intelligent, can answer for their faith and who are compassionate people, in touch with the needs of a dying world.
From my last blog entry, you might think that I have come to the conclusion that I am not living right unless I have alienated my secular friends and left them with Bibles lodged in their esophagases. On the contrary, I want to learn how to draw them, to be the person they can talk to without worry of offense or condemnation. Vaguely similar to where I started right?
Here's what I know. I want a balance. My purpose should be neither to alienate nor to make comfortable. My only goal should be to say what is needed at the time. If that means making someone uncomfortable by telling them that they can't be neutral about Jesus, then so be it. If that means just listening to their point of view quietly so that they know I'll also be there to listen to their worries and fears, then so be it. If that means being strange and "religious," fine. If that means I'm respected and sought for good discussion, fine.
See, I've been trying to cause a certain outcome and I've directed all my actions around that goal. I've been dependant on the end result (being liked and well-thought-of) to make me think I've succeeded. I should, instead, follow the Spirit in each moment, disregarding the outcome and realizing that success is obedience.
After all, we are living in the matrix. This world is not our home. All we strive for in our flesh becomes trivial when compared to eternity. If I can just work that into my soul, I won't be scathed by the bullets the enemy (and my own mind) create to prevent me from sharing Christ with others. I only have one lifetime. I only have one chance. This is my purpose and my calling.
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Monday, January 05, 2009
The Matrix: Part Two
We watched The Matrix last night. I requested to watch it again because my favorite lines from the movie have been on my mind as of late. Now, I dare not treat this movie as if it is an allegory for spiritual matters, but, as I've said before, I love it when secular people tell the truth. I love it when songs, books, or in this case, scripts, reveal what's going on on the inside of us all. I'd like to use some of the dialogue to help further explain what's been stirring in me.
The Matrix was the first R rated movie I'd ever seen. My dad took me to see it because of the metaphors for the spirit world that struck him when he saw it. It has a lot of language (that I'd forgotten about) and plenty of violence, some in slow motion to ramp up the "cool" factor, so don't take this as a recommendation to go see it if you'd prefer not to hear or see those kinds of things.
Here is a section from the dialogue. I bet you'll catch the significance right away. This is when Neo, the searching character who later grows to be the hero, meets Morpheus, his future teacher and mentor, for the first time.
Morpheus: Let me tell you why you're here. You're here because you know something. What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me. Do you know what I'm talking about?
Neo: The Matrix.
Morpheus: Do you want to know what it is?
Neo: Yes.
Morpheus: The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind.
I LOVE THAT!!! We were all born into bondage. In our case, a prison for our spirits. We all have a nagging, searching, empty feeling. Until we put off the old man and are made into new creatures, our spirits are listless and unfulfilled.
Morpheus' description of the Matrix reminds me of a couple of things. Our world of the five senses is NOT the real world. The real world is a spiritual battle ground where a great war is raging for the human race. The spirit world is the real world. The eternal is primary, the temporal, secondary. Because of this fact, Christians are living in a Matrix of sorts, where the bodies we see only represent the spirits, bound or free, that are temporarily living inside them.
What does this mean for me? I struggle with the desire to be the "cool Christian friend." (I have to say that this becomes exponentially more important because of my home schooled background) I want to be the interesting one, the fashionable one, the intelligent one. I want to break any preconceived notions people have about Christians believing blindly in a God who can't be seen while wearing denim jumpers and gasping at "shoot" or "darn." I don't want to be easily offended. I don't want to shove the Bible down any one's throat. I don't want to alienate. I don't want to try to convert. Um, this isn't really going in a good direction, is it?
I need to get a really good firm grasp on the fact that the temporal is not important! The eternal spirit of that friend of mine will be around long after all those invites to social functions, mental sparrings and intelligent discussions. What's more important?
I can illustrate this best by a brief anecdote. Remember that college friend that I exchanged so many pages of emails with? He mentioned something about many of the Christian friends he had in college strongly feeling the need to convert him. He felt he couldn't just have a conversation with them without being told that something in his life needed to change or that he wasn't good enough for some reason. He was turned off by this and doesn't remember these experiences fondly. I sent him a message to ask if I was one of those friends. As I clicked "send" I wasn't sure what I wanted the reply to be. When I was writing the message, I was thinking smugly to myself that I was on the list of those he did not have an uncomfortable moment with. What an accomplishment considering the amount we debated about faith! Then, I wondered, do I want to be the one that never really told him he had to make a decision, that the debate required an answer, that Jesus' life demanded a response that was for or against and not just ponderings. He wrote me back. No worries, I wasn't one of "those."
*sigh*
Here is another quote from the movie. Neo is caught by an Agent (actually a part of the artificial intelligence that has enslaved humanity) and is being questioned, FBI style.
Agent Smith: It seems that you've been living two lives. One life, you're Thomas A. Anderson, program writer for a respectable software company. You have a social security number, pay your taxes, and you... help your landlady carry out her garbage. The other life is lived in computers, where you go by the hacker alias "Neo" and are guilty of virtually every computer crime we have a law for. One of these lives has a future, and one of them does not.
I want to choose the life that has a future. I want to say and do things in my life that will have an impact on the future, not just the future of the world and this life, but on people's spirits for eternity to come. Neo, the computer hacker, searching for truth, discovering things the AI did not want him to find out, for fear the knowledge would spread and truth would set people free... that's who I need to strive to be like. The truth I know is the truth that can set people free for eternity.
That's all for tonight. Still more to come...
The Matrix was the first R rated movie I'd ever seen. My dad took me to see it because of the metaphors for the spirit world that struck him when he saw it. It has a lot of language (that I'd forgotten about) and plenty of violence, some in slow motion to ramp up the "cool" factor, so don't take this as a recommendation to go see it if you'd prefer not to hear or see those kinds of things.
Here is a section from the dialogue. I bet you'll catch the significance right away. This is when Neo, the searching character who later grows to be the hero, meets Morpheus, his future teacher and mentor, for the first time.
Morpheus: Let me tell you why you're here. You're here because you know something. What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me. Do you know what I'm talking about?
Neo: The Matrix.
Morpheus: Do you want to know what it is?
Neo: Yes.
Morpheus: The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind.
I LOVE THAT!!! We were all born into bondage. In our case, a prison for our spirits. We all have a nagging, searching, empty feeling. Until we put off the old man and are made into new creatures, our spirits are listless and unfulfilled.
Morpheus' description of the Matrix reminds me of a couple of things. Our world of the five senses is NOT the real world. The real world is a spiritual battle ground where a great war is raging for the human race. The spirit world is the real world. The eternal is primary, the temporal, secondary. Because of this fact, Christians are living in a Matrix of sorts, where the bodies we see only represent the spirits, bound or free, that are temporarily living inside them.
What does this mean for me? I struggle with the desire to be the "cool Christian friend." (I have to say that this becomes exponentially more important because of my home schooled background) I want to be the interesting one, the fashionable one, the intelligent one. I want to break any preconceived notions people have about Christians believing blindly in a God who can't be seen while wearing denim jumpers and gasping at "shoot" or "darn." I don't want to be easily offended. I don't want to shove the Bible down any one's throat. I don't want to alienate. I don't want to try to convert. Um, this isn't really going in a good direction, is it?
I need to get a really good firm grasp on the fact that the temporal is not important! The eternal spirit of that friend of mine will be around long after all those invites to social functions, mental sparrings and intelligent discussions. What's more important?
I can illustrate this best by a brief anecdote. Remember that college friend that I exchanged so many pages of emails with? He mentioned something about many of the Christian friends he had in college strongly feeling the need to convert him. He felt he couldn't just have a conversation with them without being told that something in his life needed to change or that he wasn't good enough for some reason. He was turned off by this and doesn't remember these experiences fondly. I sent him a message to ask if I was one of those friends. As I clicked "send" I wasn't sure what I wanted the reply to be. When I was writing the message, I was thinking smugly to myself that I was on the list of those he did not have an uncomfortable moment with. What an accomplishment considering the amount we debated about faith! Then, I wondered, do I want to be the one that never really told him he had to make a decision, that the debate required an answer, that Jesus' life demanded a response that was for or against and not just ponderings. He wrote me back. No worries, I wasn't one of "those."
*sigh*
Here is another quote from the movie. Neo is caught by an Agent (actually a part of the artificial intelligence that has enslaved humanity) and is being questioned, FBI style.
Agent Smith: It seems that you've been living two lives. One life, you're Thomas A. Anderson, program writer for a respectable software company. You have a social security number, pay your taxes, and you... help your landlady carry out her garbage. The other life is lived in computers, where you go by the hacker alias "Neo" and are guilty of virtually every computer crime we have a law for. One of these lives has a future, and one of them does not.
I want to choose the life that has a future. I want to say and do things in my life that will have an impact on the future, not just the future of the world and this life, but on people's spirits for eternity to come. Neo, the computer hacker, searching for truth, discovering things the AI did not want him to find out, for fear the knowledge would spread and truth would set people free... that's who I need to strive to be like. The truth I know is the truth that can set people free for eternity.
That's all for tonight. Still more to come...
Sunday, January 04, 2009
The Matrix: Part One
I've been struggling lately with my brain. You see, I was raised with a lot of head knowledge about God and the Bible. I was on the Bible Quiz team and had to memorize a stack of 500 questions and answers related to Bible verses and facts (yes, I had to memorize the questions AND the answers. You could buzz in on the beginning of the question, finish it and then answer it to get points... if you were that good.) I was in church every Sunday and every Wednesday and we listened to tapes of preachers in the car and at home throughout the week and went to their meetings when they came to town. My parents referenced the Bible often and I remember my Mom and Dad both, after quoting a verse that applied to a certain situation or topic almost always pulling out a Bible and reading the text and the verses around it, just to make sure they were remembering right and to give it some context.
Because of all this knowledge and my always-contemplating, critically-thinking mind, I love debate. I love it just for the sake of it and I love winning. I'll debate almost anything I know enough about and I'll even question someone about a topic they like even if I don't really have a firm grasp of it. I exchanged over 30 full pages of emails with a college friend of mine over Christmas break one year debating the topic of my faith. I like posers. I like games that make you think. I'm wired to find mistakes in others' writings, sermons, etc. and it gives me a little thrill when I do. (see post; The Muffin Police)
I was raised to have a relationship with God too, not just know things about Him. I asked Jesus to come into my heart when I was two. I rededicated my life to God and remember speaking in tongues for the first time when I was about 7. I was eager to get baptized, but the pastor said I couldn't explain it to him well enough and would have to wait. I was baptized at, like, 8. I participated in youth group. I was a stellar child (this is according to my parents). I witnessed to my friends.
I never rebelled as a teen. I went to a party college, but never partied. I got involved in a local church and was part of their dance ministry as well as a campus ministry. All my friends in college knew where I stood and Who I stood with. I didn't date or kiss anyone throughout college. (There was one guy who tricked me and stole a kiss. Yes, you can actually steal a kiss.) I married the first guy I dated and we're still happily married.
This is all just to give you the backdrop of my life as you read the rest of my thoughts and struggles as of late.
Here are the Biblical references that frame my struggles.
1 Peter 3:15 - Always be ready to give a logical defense to anyone who asks you to account for the hope that is in you
1 Corinthians 13:1-3 - 1 If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am become sounding brass, or a clanging cymbal.
2 And if I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3 And if I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and if I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profiteth me nothing.
Romans 13 :10-13 - 10 Love does no wrong to others, so love fulfills the requirements of God’s law. 11 This is all the more urgent, for you know how late it is; time is running out. Wake up, for our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed. 12 The night is almost gone; the day of salvation will soon be here. So remove your dark deeds like dirty clothes, and put on the shining armor of right living. 13 Because we belong to the day, we must live decent lives for all to see.
Ephesians 5:16-17 - 16 Make the most of every opportunity in these evil days. 17 Don’t act thoughtlessly, but understand what the Lord wants you to do.
More to come...
Because of all this knowledge and my always-contemplating, critically-thinking mind, I love debate. I love it just for the sake of it and I love winning. I'll debate almost anything I know enough about and I'll even question someone about a topic they like even if I don't really have a firm grasp of it. I exchanged over 30 full pages of emails with a college friend of mine over Christmas break one year debating the topic of my faith. I like posers. I like games that make you think. I'm wired to find mistakes in others' writings, sermons, etc. and it gives me a little thrill when I do. (see post; The Muffin Police)
I was raised to have a relationship with God too, not just know things about Him. I asked Jesus to come into my heart when I was two. I rededicated my life to God and remember speaking in tongues for the first time when I was about 7. I was eager to get baptized, but the pastor said I couldn't explain it to him well enough and would have to wait. I was baptized at, like, 8. I participated in youth group. I was a stellar child (this is according to my parents). I witnessed to my friends.
I never rebelled as a teen. I went to a party college, but never partied. I got involved in a local church and was part of their dance ministry as well as a campus ministry. All my friends in college knew where I stood and Who I stood with. I didn't date or kiss anyone throughout college. (There was one guy who tricked me and stole a kiss. Yes, you can actually steal a kiss.) I married the first guy I dated and we're still happily married.
This is all just to give you the backdrop of my life as you read the rest of my thoughts and struggles as of late.
Here are the Biblical references that frame my struggles.
1 Peter 3:15 - Always be ready to give a logical defense to anyone who asks you to account for the hope that is in you
1 Corinthians 13:1-3 - 1 If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am become sounding brass, or a clanging cymbal.
2 And if I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3 And if I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and if I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profiteth me nothing.
Romans 13 :10-13 - 10 Love does no wrong to others, so love fulfills the requirements of God’s law. 11 This is all the more urgent, for you know how late it is; time is running out. Wake up, for our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed. 12 The night is almost gone; the day of salvation will soon be here. So remove your dark deeds like dirty clothes, and put on the shining armor of right living. 13 Because we belong to the day, we must live decent lives for all to see.
Ephesians 5:16-17 - 16 Make the most of every opportunity in these evil days. 17 Don’t act thoughtlessly, but understand what the Lord wants you to do.
More to come...
Friday, January 02, 2009
Jonas Brothers
I know I've been delinquent with Favorite Friday's. I'll make it one of my New Year's resolutions to be better about posting them.
During the New Year's Rockin' Eve party, the Jonas Brothers performed. I've heard them on the radio and was vaguely aware that I like pretty much every song I've heard from them. I know they're trying to portray good values as well, which is nice to see in young men. Publicity stunt or not, I'm glad someone's going against the flow.
This video has caused my interest in them to continue to grow. The story line is so sweet and the tune is catchy. The lyrics aren't Shakespeare, but sometimes simple works.
I'm not the right age to go ga-ga for them, but I can enjoy thier music anyway right?
Sorry about the Office Max sponsorship bar...
During the New Year's Rockin' Eve party, the Jonas Brothers performed. I've heard them on the radio and was vaguely aware that I like pretty much every song I've heard from them. I know they're trying to portray good values as well, which is nice to see in young men. Publicity stunt or not, I'm glad someone's going against the flow.
This video has caused my interest in them to continue to grow. The story line is so sweet and the tune is catchy. The lyrics aren't Shakespeare, but sometimes simple works.
I'm not the right age to go ga-ga for them, but I can enjoy thier music anyway right?
Sorry about the Office Max sponsorship bar...
Jesus Christ Superstar
The Jesus Christ Show.
Oh yes, you can listen to Jesus speak directly to listeners by tuning into your radio the same time each week. Call in with your greatest need, your unanswered questions, your worries... and hear your answer directly from the Man/God Himself.
Sound crazy? Sound interesting?
I was offended the first time I saw the title and didn't even bother to click on the link to see the interview about it. I assumed it would be completely irreverent. I saw the same link again today and decided to give it a moment of my time. This guy, Neil Saavedra, a born-again Christian since age 17, has begun to host a radio show where he plays Jesus and answers callers questions by referencing Jesus' words in the Bible.
I have VERY mixed feelings about this, but mostly negative ones (and I'll warn you that I haven't organized them, so this post may be long and scattered). When callers address Mr. Saavedra, they call him "Lord" or "Jesus." This makes sense since that's his character for the duration of the show, but I would NEVER want anyone to address me with the name of God in any serious manner.
Then I thought, what about acting the part of Jesus for a film? Is that something I wouldn't do? Mr. Saavedra calls his show a type of interactive theatre. He is completely upfront about the fact that he is not God and he knows it. He only inhabits the character for the show. It still disturbs me. In a movie or play, one is speaking lines and portraying a character, not directly answering real people's real questions, some of which have haunted them for years.
The danger is that instead of people talking to Jesus, they will call in and talk to Neil because that is a more "real" experience for them. They're talking with flesh and blood and they can get some kind of immediate answer to something they really want to know. Yes, he's referencing the Bible and yes, he says outside of the show that all his answers are obviously based on his point of view and express only his opinion, but I'm seeing shades of the Catholicism he was raised in.
Strict Catholics go to a priest instead of straight to God and, as far as I know are generally not encouraged to study the Word for themselves. When Jesus died, the curtain in the temple was torn. We have DIRECT access to the throne; access to God's very Word, those words full of life that can separate bone from marrow, soul from spirit. Then I thought about pastors, mentors, therapists, people that Christians go to and ask questions or discuss their lives. Those people might reference scripture, give their opinions to answer questions, even say "Here's what Jesus had to say about this." Isn't this man just another form of mentor for people that call in?
So is this radio show (on a popular secular station) a God-inspired new way to reach the masses that might not otherwise seek Christian counsel for the questions in their lives and don't know how to start to find answers in the Word? I don't know. I don't know his heart and I'm not judging him as a person. (And by the by, the fact that he has struggled with rebellion and is admittedly not living by all of Jesus' teachings himself doesn't help me like the program more, but ultimately that doesn't play into this at all because nobody's perfect.) All I can say is that it seems dangerous to play a role that Jesus should be playing in people's lives. It could cause people to depend on a man that knows a lot about what Jesus said instead of the omniscient One who died for us and actually spoke the Word and can still speak directly to hearts.
I've got many more thoughts on the matter and it would make for excellent discussion, but I'll stop writing and let you read an article about it for yourself.
http://www.religionnewsblog.com/16741/what-would-jesus-say-radio-host-takes-on-godly-persona-gives-life-advice
Oh yes, you can listen to Jesus speak directly to listeners by tuning into your radio the same time each week. Call in with your greatest need, your unanswered questions, your worries... and hear your answer directly from the Man/God Himself.
Sound crazy? Sound interesting?
I was offended the first time I saw the title and didn't even bother to click on the link to see the interview about it. I assumed it would be completely irreverent. I saw the same link again today and decided to give it a moment of my time. This guy, Neil Saavedra, a born-again Christian since age 17, has begun to host a radio show where he plays Jesus and answers callers questions by referencing Jesus' words in the Bible.
I have VERY mixed feelings about this, but mostly negative ones (and I'll warn you that I haven't organized them, so this post may be long and scattered). When callers address Mr. Saavedra, they call him "Lord" or "Jesus." This makes sense since that's his character for the duration of the show, but I would NEVER want anyone to address me with the name of God in any serious manner.
Then I thought, what about acting the part of Jesus for a film? Is that something I wouldn't do? Mr. Saavedra calls his show a type of interactive theatre. He is completely upfront about the fact that he is not God and he knows it. He only inhabits the character for the show. It still disturbs me. In a movie or play, one is speaking lines and portraying a character, not directly answering real people's real questions, some of which have haunted them for years.
The danger is that instead of people talking to Jesus, they will call in and talk to Neil because that is a more "real" experience for them. They're talking with flesh and blood and they can get some kind of immediate answer to something they really want to know. Yes, he's referencing the Bible and yes, he says outside of the show that all his answers are obviously based on his point of view and express only his opinion, but I'm seeing shades of the Catholicism he was raised in.
Strict Catholics go to a priest instead of straight to God and, as far as I know are generally not encouraged to study the Word for themselves. When Jesus died, the curtain in the temple was torn. We have DIRECT access to the throne; access to God's very Word, those words full of life that can separate bone from marrow, soul from spirit. Then I thought about pastors, mentors, therapists, people that Christians go to and ask questions or discuss their lives. Those people might reference scripture, give their opinions to answer questions, even say "Here's what Jesus had to say about this." Isn't this man just another form of mentor for people that call in?
So is this radio show (on a popular secular station) a God-inspired new way to reach the masses that might not otherwise seek Christian counsel for the questions in their lives and don't know how to start to find answers in the Word? I don't know. I don't know his heart and I'm not judging him as a person. (And by the by, the fact that he has struggled with rebellion and is admittedly not living by all of Jesus' teachings himself doesn't help me like the program more, but ultimately that doesn't play into this at all because nobody's perfect.) All I can say is that it seems dangerous to play a role that Jesus should be playing in people's lives. It could cause people to depend on a man that knows a lot about what Jesus said instead of the omniscient One who died for us and actually spoke the Word and can still speak directly to hearts.
I've got many more thoughts on the matter and it would make for excellent discussion, but I'll stop writing and let you read an article about it for yourself.
http://www.religionnewsblog.com/16741/what-would-jesus-say-radio-host-takes-on-godly-persona-gives-life-advice
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Let Them Eat Cake
We celebrated Eden's first birthday
again last night by taking her to Macaroni Grill and getting
her a huge bowl of shells and cheese
and a cup of apple juice.
She ate a good portion of it before she decided she'd had enough and she drank about 3/4 of the juice (more than she's ever had in one sitting). I wanted them to do a birthday song so I could get her surprised expression on video when the staff came out clapping and singing to the table.
Macaroni Grill is boring.
Four of the wait staff gathered at our table and slowly and gently sang "Happy Birthday" in Italian. It's Chuck's fault. He picked the restaurant. If we had gone to Applebee's or Chili's, they would have done some peppy, cheesy number and it would have been funnier. The good part was the dessert they brought. They set this HUGE brownie, fudgey, cakey thing in front of her with two lit candles. It was yuuuuuummy. Daddy was able to blow out the candles just as a pudgy baby finger was about to make contact with the flames and then baby chowed down on chocolate icing and whipped cream while we ate a few bites of the scrumptious cake.We celebrated yet again one last time tonight. I had made lemon cupcakes yesterday for her to have when we got home from the restaurant, but the chocolate dessert we had there was plenty of sugar for one evening. We had our own little moment with one little cupcake and our own "Happy Birthday" song. She tackled the icing again. We pulled what was left of the treat away as soon as we turned the video camera off. Are we mean? I hope not. I just want her (and us) to sleep tonight.
I keep thinking that even though I didn't really want a party and kept saying that she has no idea what a first birthday is anyway, that I'll regret something about her experience. We're planning on doing this all one more time, but that's the only first birthday our first baby girl will ever have.I could really get in some deep doo-doo thinking that way.
Talk about pressure.
I can't create what I think is the perfect experience for her all the time, not even some of the time. It doesn't really matter either, as long as she's getting the love she needs and we're all together as a family.
And there's some cake. :)
Attention: Ornament Manufacturers...
My husband pointed out a Christmas ornament to me today at the mall. It was a little man in a white coat with a stethescope and clipboard. He said it wouldn't be an appropriate ornament to represent him. I asked why that guy couldn't represent a radiologist and his answer would make a very unappealing ornament. He said radiologists are fat from sitting around all day and have big eyes (like marsupials) from sitting in the dark looking at films. Um... ick.
Hopefully he'll break the mold.
Hopefully he'll break the mold.
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